Last evening in Bequia reunited with friends we didn't expect to see for months thanks to a mass exodus south to avoid Beryl! (Seriously leaving St. Lucia was a bit like the start of a regetta 😅😅😅) So going to miss them!! But today we leave for Tobago to collect visitors on Tuesday! We may be quiet for a bit as I expect the sail to be rather long. Falkor was bought because he's safe rather than fast! 😉 If you really need your fix the new Creative Spirits podcast is out as are two new books on Amazon! All links on the creative mermaids homepage! Www.creativemermaids.com
Sailing is fixing your boat in exotic places! First the anchor chain. Actually first it was the Genoa that's still not repaired (which is why we're now picking it up in St. Lusia rather than Barbados). But the anchor chain trumped everything as the thought of finding out the boat had decided to sail to Mexico without us was rather depressing. Now the water pump in the engine is leaking. So we're off this morning to get that fixed before heading to St. Lucia. Fingers crossed it will be quick and relatively painless as it's just the seal leaking. Being a full time cruiser is not a perpetual holiday. It is most definitely an adventure and those are very different creatures indeed (and why sometimes you need a holiday! 😜) I was journalling this morning (sidenote: first morning in a week that Mr. Man is finally 100% himself allowing me to have morning journalling back. BLISS!!!) & thinking about how a lot of people think this life is one of escape. We did escape our golden cages but life follows you. And the true escape from the golden cage is being your own source of happiness. So long as you're always chasing outside validation (be it more money, more status or the belief that next city or beach is where happiness is) you will get a shot of happiness that disappears. Outside validation is not self replenishing. Finding it inside is so much harder but in the end it's the only well that you can replenish and take control of. And that will keep you from losing your sh$t when things go wrong as they always will (eventually! It's physics what goes up must come down!). Otherwise you'll find yourself running back for the illusion of safety that shiny cage gives you. BTW Leaving the cage doesn't have to mean travel. It means living whatever life lights you up. It can mean giving up your high paying job and downgrading all your expenses so you can afford to write. Or even becoming a barista because you love coffee and people and not taking your job home with you. It's whatever is happiness to you. That's what's outside the cage. Even if everyone else thinks you're crazy for choosing it.
It's not always sunshine, turtles and dolphins! My little man is sick. Not sea sick. Proper fever sick. This terrifies me. Ever since he had his first seizure fever in Portugal last year the least elevation of his temperature sends me into a panic spiral. I do 4 hour watches all night to check if his temperature is up, which it has been, so he gets his next round of fever meds (alternating ibuprofen and paracetamol to keep it down). We're both exhausted! But I know if he does have a seizure he will be Ok. That they are almost "normal". But as a mother watching that "normal" thing – please please please never again. (That first time I honestly thought he was dying. I still cry if I talk about it for more than 2 seconds). So this boat is a sleepy one today! Yesterday we had On Guard running all afternoon. And this morning as he woke up with no fever we switched to Citrus to get some energy into our step! Also mermaids in the creative mermaids Facebook group: we pulled all the Thursday mermaid cards for the month together today! So it was very much a family effort today. 😄😄😄